You know, I had an infection in the follicles of my pubic hairs once. It was crazy nasty and incredibly painful, and looked to (a well educated, well read, pretty well abreast of these things) me like genital herpes. And of course the same behaviors that invite STD's can also open you up to other bacteria and virus that are not exclusively sexually transmitted, so the circumstantial evidence also supported herpes. But when I went to the health department for it, the nurse practitioner was able to tell they were not herpes sores. Though they did not offer me an antibiotic or even a topical cream, which is not so relevant but just looking back seems inappropriate. So, the symptoms of one affliction can masquerade as those of another, different affliction, and maybe the nurse you saw didn't take that into account as much as she should have. Probably a culture of one of your sores would have been a better diagnostic tool than her best educated guess.
@frumious bandersnatch Ugh. And it seems like every few years a new group of young women come of the age where they echo this sentiment, b/c they do not realize how cliched and insincere it is. OTOH, ;there are particular times that particular women have said this to me--often w/out the *b/c other girls are sooo jealous of me* part--and I think what they really mean is *I do not know how to connect w/other women but I could so please do not laugh at my overtures of friendship once I am gone* soooo.....maybe we should be nice to them, at the very least so they have no merit to this whole *oh it is jealousy plus girls hate me b/c I am the first and only woman to ever be pretty also I have not included the word drama enough times yet....drama*
@area@twitter What is w/the grapefruit? Ha, did you know, they actually make a pointed, um, point of NOT warning you off it at the methadone clinic, though every other literature about and prescriber of methadone will, b/c it is one of the drugs whose effects are made more potent by grapefruit. Because, you know, drug addicts taking risks in the name of drugs. I guess they figure the risk of one of their patients actually just happening to willingly drink grapefruit juice is negligible. B/c it is so gross and you have to drink the REAL nasty, not the sweetened low percentage shit, for it to happen
@TheBourneApproximation GGAAAHHHH...."I don't have air conditioning" is like, the Florida (or any hot climate, I suppose) version of "I don't own a TV". And you know how there's some people that just actually don't own a TV, but then there's those OTHER people that Don't Have Television; and one of them just doesn't have a TV and one of them is insufferable? Yeah.
@sparrow303 Ha ha...I think the old days version of that is etchings. This was a Thing, right? Would you like to come up and look at my etchings? I swear I remember hearing this enough that I believed it was a a tried and true ploy. For awhile in my early 20s I thought etchings were a fake thing (they are not, but they are not at all what you would think they are either. Though I actually cannot remember what it is they ARE right now) made up by old men of a certain type just to get ladies up to their apartments and that like, the world of old timey courtship would IMPLODE if ever a lady actually demanded an erudite gentleman produce said etchings.
@TheLetterL For some reason, Kirsten was like, the business amongst my peers and at school. Kirsten and her St Lucia headdress. Everyone had her, and if they didnt, they wanted her. I came of age in Pleasant Companys heyday too--none of this interchangeable heads and kicky striped T shirt just like me dolls for me--so I know from my American Girl hierarchy. And so I can tell you w/authority that I cannot comfort you when it comes to Molly. Even when she Saved the Day the stakes werent all THAT high. All I remember her doing, really, was not eating turnips until her mom got home in one book and probably she had a crisis involving a fabric shortage for her pantyhose or something too didnt she?
@LaurenF That is about what I came here to say, too. I had Felicity and Samantha, and we werent even THAT family (you know, the one with the girl who has all the dolls and all the accessories and like, the human size dresses for herself), but I got them! They had a bunch of knock off dresses made by some lady at a state fair booth though (they were actually very lovely and well made), so I guess I could have both dolls b/c my mom didnt get suckered on the accessories.
Eventually I got...someones (Samantha?) birthday set, w/all the little cakes and tea set and the fancy table and chairs. I think that was more for my mom b/c every year she would set them up in a beautiful Christmas tableau, until the year they were caught on film, mixed in w/the family photos, holding little tiny straws to their little tiny noses to inhale little tiny lines of powder off Samanthas dowager Grammas mahogany table. The family blamed me, but I...and I think you all too....know to blame Samantha, b/c which of us do you think it is more likely was the blowsy wannabe celebutante?
@Only does it to be popular I suppose these are the same women who were getting pregnant so that their welfare check would increase back in the 90s? They never did manage to catch one of those unicorns for us btw.
@Tropical Iceland My opinion is that Sub is best suited for people whose addiction is largely physical, more just a dependence really. Someone w/all the attendant addiction issues might need something to be addicted to while they do their recovery (methadone I mean), plus methadone junks up your enjoyment of other opiates once you are tolerant enough of it. I do not worry a lot about people finding out I have (had) substance abuse issues though, and shame and embarrassment--having to be seen at the clinic and all--is a serious hurdle blocking a lot of people from methadone treatment. Maybe your boyfriend is not totally ready to be on Subs yet....I think about them the way I do b/c they are firstly not supervised for diversion like w/a clinic and also the effect of them is like, say....Suboxone is like a cast and very effective painkiller for your broken leg but Methadone is like unbreaking it. If you are able to manage treatment independently then a cast and a painkiller is fine, you know? And it makes a big difference whether he has a doctor and a Rx, or if he is getting them off the street. Nothing is really changed if he is getting them off the street. There is no consistency to the dosing that way either, you never know when your guy will be out, and you are still putting all your money and energy to finding dope. I am not into meetings or the whole recovery literature/community stuff either, but sometimes you need something. A lot of former addicts are so religious b/c you do, you just need SOMETHING. It is okay to have a crutch, it has a negative connotation but there is no good reason for that. Maybe some of this is a new way to think about some of the things you have to go through w/him. I know, I have All The Feelings when it comes to dope addiction so I will go on if you want too.
All the barriers to treatment w/Suboxone are artificial. Buprenorphine is not new, or exotic, or hard to come by, but Suboxone is incredibly expensive. I think its something like 10.00 a pill (strip, whichever). Medicaid will actually pay for the Rx, but not w/out special paperwork. I notice the original article mentioned that. But most (all that I have encountered) doctors that can prescribe Suboxone do not accept Medicaid; it requires a few initial office visits back to back and they are expensive, the lowest price I heard was 1000.00 for induction (the first few days and your first month rx) so I do not know where the writer is located that she got her prices from. Even the methadone clinic will not accept Medicaid for Suboxone treatment. Maybe FL Medicaid will not pay for Suboxone treatment, is what it is. Locally, at least, pain management clinics and their narcotics are much more accessible and much more affordable. (Well, that is changing due to law enforcement trends and database monitoring, but you know what is taking its place in price and ease of access? Heroin! Way to track us all into compliance DEA). Suboxone, while it does carry w/it some withdrawal symptoms, is not nearly as physically addictive as methadone or oxycodone, and it is not a long term, recurring treatment. Of course it is only being made really available to those who can pay thousands of dollars to get to it, b/c there is just that one chance to get the cash for it. Methadone and oxy/dilaudid/patch/etc users can be billed to insurance every month for years and years, and even if it cannot--and plenty of times it cant b/c most pain managements do not accept insurance, but no matter--their users WILL figure out how to pay for it because there is such addiction, and it is a couple hundred bucks, not thousands.
I am of the belief that methadone works, and the addiction IS one of the reasons I think it works so well. The dependency, I should say b/c I only mean the physical aspect. You are sort of compelled to stick w/your methadone regimen, even if you are feeling demotivated, self destructive, or craving dope b/c you will be sick w/out it. And so you are forced to dose and stay clean and well enough to function for one more day. Conversely, you can skip your Suboxone for the day if you want to get high; once your methadone dose gets stable and you are acclimated to it you can really not get high at all no matter how many days you skip.