@ColdFinger I told my boyfriend about it and he was WAY more disturbed than I expected...I guess my uncontrollable (though, I maintain, not maniacal) laughter didn't help
yup yup yup yup yup. back to the document.
Horse, I'm about to graduate from college and I'm fucking terrified. I have an internship for the summer but no job and a crippling, if probably irrational, fear that I'll never be able to find one. I feel like everyone I know has their finance/consulting/grad school/law school/med school/TFA plans all set and now they're finding apartments and exclaiming about how strange it is to be an adult and I'm just watching it all happen, terrified of ending up stuck with my parents in the shitty suburb I'm from and looking through all their facebook albums of how much fun they're having together until my boyfriend calls to tell me he's breaking up with me because I can't get my shit together and he's tired of waiting around.
PHEW. I know it's probably going to be fine, I have a support system, I'm smart and hardworking and I'm sure I picked up a few marketable skills somewhere along the line. Plenty of people have done this before me. It's just that I only really feel safe when I have plans and I have no plans and, just, like, edge of precipice. Plus all the emotions of graduating/endings.
It will be okay, right horse? One word: plastics?
@cuminafterall I only have 2 more months left in this special place and I do not want to leave it. Weekday afternoon sex is just my favorite kind! I do keep having vivid dreams about queen-sized beds, though.