I guy I lived with in uni dropped out of his scholarship in Physics to become the guy who leads the horse town the tow path in Llangollen or somewhere godforsaken like that.
He probably doesn't regret it.
Girl, you must be a dependence because you are a compulsive or chronic need; an addiction: an alcohol dependence.
Hells yeah, I am!
In an annoying twist of fate this link isn't available in the UK. Or it is? What's the programme called, maybs I can find it in iPlayer? Would some handy clairvoyant please let me know? I'm spinning my string... NOW!
Imaginary Female Trouble"? Trouble with an Imaginary Female? Or Females imagining troubles?
"Those little flies that sometimes buzz annoyingly around your face are the physical embodiments of unpleasant things people are saying about you at that moment." I KNEW IT!!!
@Lady Humungus Hm, I got mine prescribed through NHS (and it is a SUPER gross colour, but hey! Free!)... but I'm guessing your in America? If so, find a mental health charity that can get one for you or... eBay? but second hand blanket = super gross.
@Lady Humungus, Well promise me you'll try it... I scoffed derisivly when someone suggested it to me - as IF something so petty as a weighted blanket could help at all with what was obviously a massive black hole hovering just above my bed ready to drag me to the very shrinking depths of HELL - but I tried it, and had the first full night of sleep ever and now I'm preaching about it on the internet, so there you go. It might not work for you, but I really hope it does because the Night Panics are just the absolute worst.
On the flip side: I now spend a lot less time awake at night writing my terrible novel (BECAUSE I AM A WORTHLESS HUMAN BEING WITH NOTHING TO CONTRIBUTE TO THE WORLD AND EVERYONE HATES ME AND WHEN I DIE EVERYONE WILL LAUGH AND HAVE A PLEXIA'S DEAD PARTY BUT AT LEAST I WILL HAVE PRODUCED THIS ONE THING), so that's probably never gonna get done now. But it's a solid trade.
@Lady Humungus You should get a weighted blanket, if you haven't already. I don't wanna be The Girl Who Will Fix You On the Internet, but I used to have totally debilitating anxiety, like couldn't work or breath a lot of the time and nothing worked, but then I got a weighted blanket and it CHANGED MY LIFE! I mean, I can sleep through the most nights without the night spirals, and well slept me is way more able to face the Terrifying World than tired me who mainly just had panic attacks and hid under desks.
I am super super bummed about Ian Banks dying because he looks exactly like my dad, and every time I see the news article I think of my dad dying, and then feel relieved that he's not, then feel like a TOTAL BITCH for being Happy Ian Bank's is dying instead of my dad. It's a very complicated cycle and basically just ends in me feeling like shit. I hope my dad never dies and Ian Banks gets magically cured.
@rosaline ME TOO! I spent the whole day being uncomfortably helpful.