Moving to New York (way back in the 90s!) absolutely KILLED my creative drive. At the end of the day after the subway, my tedious desk job, the gym the subway again … all I wanted to do was drink, eat or sleep. Plus, everyone is an artist and everyone seemed better than me and when I was young I let that intimidate me.
Leaving was the best thing I ever did. It took me two years to start writing again, but it's happening. It's so much easier to balance life, work, creativity in other places. SO much easier!
@Kalorama_Kat AHHH this. When me and my sister finished school, my parents divorced. My mom got a new degree, and is now pursuing DOING WHAT SHE LOVES. She lives paycheck-to-paycheck and is saving nothing towards her retirement and living in an apartment.
And she is always like, DO WHAT YOU LOVE. YOLO. Quit your dumb desk job and PURSUE YOUR DREAMS!
And all I can think of is the fact that, because neither of my parents have homes of their own or any retirement savings whatsoever, one day they are going to be old. One day, one of them will live with me and one of them will live with my sister and the boring desk jobs we have taken with 401ks and generous vacation policies will allow us to take care of their old, drooling YOLO asses.
REAL TALK: I went to a pre-college program with Jenna Thiam (Lena) in the summer of 2007. We sometimes sat next to each other in our class on 20th century plays. Since we hardly ever spoke, she most definitely does not remember me (though we are friends on Facebook--I was a bit shameless about my friending behavior as a 10th grader).
I, on the other hand, totally remember her. Let it be known that Jenna Thiam has always been this hot (or at least has been this hot since age ~16). She always wore these lacy bras that would peek out from under her dresses, and her hair was also amazingly red and untamed and made me realize for the first time how sexy and awesome curly hair can be. Our class was pretty interesting (it introduced me to Tennessee Williams, Arthur Miller, and August Wilson, so kudos to Ellen, our instructor), but to be honest I spent most of the class sneaking looks at Jenna, taking mental notes on her beauty/style choices and thinking to myself, "Goddamn it she is so fucking French."
Oh, Michelle. Maybe if you didn't spend all your time drinking, you might be able to land a boyfriend or make some friends.
@Mariajoseh I get those immediately before the start of my period. My cycle is irregular, so that is my absolute best tell. Cramps then, period'll be showing up in the next day or two. It's rather handy, though really badly timed.
I like some poetry, and I liked this piece because it seems pretty honest. I will say, though, that there's nothing wrong with a color modifier on something like moss, because whether you care or not, it does come in various shades of green.
"Although it’s rarely clear if you’re the hero, the villain, or the idiot when traveling, and maybe you’re always all three."
And also not just when traveling.
@Mariajoseh Oh I absolutely think weird is cool (Hi! My name is Jolie and I write about bleach with great enthusiasm!) but, like, The HP was always unabashedly goofy and earnest and bizarre. Which is cool, at least in my eyes, but not at all "cool-girl." There's SUCH a difference.
By YoungCrone on Brain Trouble
I feel compelled to repeat the same comment I made on the other migraine post earlier this week, just because it applies to both:
I inherited my migraines from my mother. The way she tells it, she couldn't get any doctors to take her migraines seriously--I don't think the drugs I take today had even been developed yet, or at least no one prescribed them for her. Migraines were just one of those things that women imagined to get attention. So twice a month she would have to hole up and vomit for three days straight. For attention.
By autumng on Brain Trouble
I know you have heard everything, but I'm in the same boat you are and thought I might throw an idea your way. A couple of months ago I had what I assumed was a major ear infection in both ears, but my ENT said my ears were perfect and that it's possible I have TMJ which could also cause my migraines.
I visited a TMJ doctor and he confirmed that my jaws weren't aligned and that the cartilage on my right side had moved outside the joint. Three weeks ago I started wearing an expensive TMJ mouth guard that I will wear 24 hours a day (except for when I'm eating and brushing my teeth) for six months.
I hope beyond hope that this will fix my problems. Last year I went through a four month period of a 24-hour migraine. I just could not kick it. It's the only time in my life I've ever considered suicide. I hope to never go through that again. Now I take the random migraines and go with it as I definitely prefer it to the alternative. However, cross fingers this ugly, bulky TMJ brace works. Maybe go get your jaw checked out?
Sorry for the rambling. My (daily) headache gets worse in the afternoon after staring at the computer screen all day. Makes it hard to focus.