I just want to be squished in between Jaime and Brienne while they make out passionately and insult each other. That's all I want in this world.
The 'get therapy, get it nowwwww!' advice always drives me up the wall. I can't be the only broke-ass, uninsured 'pinner in the realm. An extra $150-200 per month for therapy would break me, financially. If I'm still wishing on a star for the money to get my cavities filled, I probably can't afford to fix my psyche problems, and they're a lower priority because my brain doesn't hurt every time I eat donuts.
@Myrtle Nope. I enjoy the non-sex time, so I don't mind at all, and there are fringe benefits like fancy dates and presents. Whatever we had was not like what I was doing with my other clients, which makes it extra sad that it wasn't enough for him.
@Elsajeni Hey, labradors are a working breed, so clearly they have cover letters well sorted:D
@Myrtle I think this is the stage where you date fun, puppyish guys who like you quite a bit but you'd never marry? I'm not sure, either.
@Oliver St. John Mollusc See, part of what is making me feel so shitty is that I never wanted to be in a relationship with him, but apparently I made him feel I did. His problem, not mine, but I'm fairly well-steeped in the girl socialization that says be nice to everyone and make them happy at all costs. Grrr. I hate being mean to people, and crushing this guy is going to really suck.
@Danzig! :D I will shut it down! And 'rent-to-own girlfriend' is so good I'm shamelessly stealing it.
@Ellie I think you're absolutely right on all points. It was nice while it lasted, but I agree that it's probably dead at this point.
@Mira I think I'm just going to start telling him I had to fill his bimonthly slot to get by, and isn't that a shame, I'm just so darn busy now, I hardly have time to meet up with friends who aren't waving envelopes of cash! I just wish I could feel less like mercenary whore about it.
@paper bag princess I think mostly I want to have my cake and eat it too. I want this fun, exciting, spontaneous sexual relationship, but I also want him to treat me like the professional I am and give me my damn money. So I have to decide if I like steamy-hot intimacy and blanket-forts more than money, and I'm leaning towards money. I still feel like an awful person, though. Maybe I need to establish a 'never tell me about your marital status' boundary with all new clients.
As for your last question, I've only had two guys become deeply fixated on me- this man, and a guy who genuinely believed I was just, I don't know, grooming him to become my ideal sex slave, and was crushed when I told him I saw him as a client. So, it's tricky and awkward. I know a lot of sex workers get stalkers, so I'd rather have guys love me than obsess over me! I'm counting my blessings it's just guys who think I'd make a good girlfriend, and aren't trying to knife me.