yes, thank you so much for sharing this.
@heyits the word "codependency" was like, the ugliest word ever to me-so embarrassing. i love the daily meditations too!
hi! first of all, thanks for asking that question. i have always been exactly that way myself and it was really fucking frustrating as i could never find anyone else that totally understood/related to me. second of all, pay no mind to all of these geniuses offering ridiculous advice like "just stop being crazy?!". if it were that easy, surely you would stop, as feeling like this fucking sucks (i know it does). third of all, get ready to do some work, like WORK work, like outside help work. my "checkered past" has allowed me to find my way into a program that encourages acceptance, surrender, and eventually, turning it over. i'm not saying that's for you, but it is working for me. also, therapy is not as scary as it sounds (in the meantime, maybe check out the language of letting go by melody beattie).
i remember thinking i was so fucked up for SOOOOO long for thinking and feeling the way that i do. it can get better for you, i promise, it happened to me. hang in there (pic of cat "hanging in there").
mine looks like "middle america" kat von d