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On A Chat With Geoff, an Actual Ghost-Believer, in Which I Clearly Care About Ghosts a Lot More Than He Does
@Lisa Frank clearly the ghosts kept removing the batteries
@PatatasBravas Yay pee pee stories!
Besides the one that turned into a kidney infection (omg sucked+ permanant scarring) my worst was actually one that occurred during a California to New York road trip with a boyfriend who realized just after Utah that he didn't really want to be my boyfriend anymore. The symptoms set in around Kansas, but instead of trying to find an urgent care center, we pushed through, me chugging water and cranberry and stopping along the highway to pee every hour or so. It was pretty advanced by the time we finally made it to Brooklyn and found what we later learned was known as "the worst hospital in New York." The wait was six hours to get my Cipro. All around us people writhed in pain, sometimes literally on the floor. In the bathroom there was shit smeared on the wall and no soap or toilet paper. The WB was on in the background.
The next day the boyfriend really wanted to do a city-wide bike ride with his pack of friends. The only bike they had available for him was a tandem. "Which means you'll have to come too," he said. So I rode around on a tandem all day through Brooklyn with a urethra of fire, behind a dude who was about to break up with me. Then I flew back home to California and cried a lot. I was 21.
Now I drink allllll the cranberry.
@paperbuttons it worked! I called them and they credited me the difference and they were really nice about it. Thanks guys!
OH MAN! I ordered that rocking chair last week! But it was $129 then! It's supposed to arrive today and NOW I AM SO MAD!
@Renleigh I have seriously never met an Amelia who wasn't awesome. it's uncanny.
@The Everpresent Wordsnatcher I still wear a 34 B, but like, I think the girls are shrinking...or flattening. FUN!
@theotherginger Aw good luck, girl!! If you do decide try it, tell me how it goes in the next FOT!
@theotherginger Well I have been taking them both in pill form, two Passion Flowers in the morning and one 5-HTP a few hours later. Occasionally the Passion Flower makes me a bit sleepy, but it's a pretty good trade off I think. The first time I took the 5-HTP I got extremely giggly, like I was high. It was actually pretty fun :)
But that effect wore off pretty quickly and now it just helps take a teensy bit of the edge off.
Neither of them seem to impair my work at all, I don't feel spacey or slowed down, in fact I'm pretty sure they only help, as my hyper-reactive inner critic seems to chill out JUST enough so that I can actually write instead of, you know, lie on the floor steeped in my own sense of worthlessness.
But again, all of this may be due to the cessation of the ol' daily gin and tonics...
@Lexa Lane As a shy person I can totally relate to her, and my only advice is to be pretty direct with your overtures. Maybe put a movie on and knock on her door to see if she wants to watch it with you? If she declines, don't get discouraged, just make sure you keep trying a few more times. Also, invite her out if you are headed for drinks or a show or something, that should really help.
Sometimes people like us need a LOT of coaxing before we come out of our little caves. It's annoying, but it will be worth it in the end when she stops tiptoeing around and you guys can feel normal around each other. Good luck!
A few months ago I asked the FOT about how you all deal with acute anxiety, and got a lot of encouraging responses. I just wanted to post an update. I've quit drinking (actually that part was an accident , but it still counts right?) and have been taken Passion Flower and 5-HTP every day for about two months and I feel SO MUCH better.
I mean I will probably always be an anxious, somewhat neurotic person, but the episodes of lying flat on my floor for hours just feeling my heart race and being totally incapacitated seem to be over (knock on wood!)
I don't actually know if it is the Passion Flower, the 5-HTP, or the lack of booze, but I just wanted to share what has worked for me so far, in case anyone else is in a similar position.