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Wednesday, June 25, 2014

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Ask Baba Yaga: How Do I Get Over the Shame I Feel For My Work?

the boulder

Transcript after the jump.

Dear Baba Yaga,

For years I have been working on a project that I detest. I am ashamed of its quality, and that I did not listen to my gut and pursue work that I loved. Soon I will be publicly associated with this work, including having to present it to a group of people I admire. I just want to put this episode behind me and learn from it, but I am terrified that I will be too traumatized by the public presentation to do any meaningful work once it is done. How can I minimize feeling ashamed and paralyzed?

BABA YAGA:

You have been hauling ) an ugly boulder behind you for a long time . To show it
to others, to say, "here is a boulder" is not to tie it closer to you, & when you leave it by the side of the road ; it will just be another boulder, no uglier (in truth) than any other, & few will take notice of it. :For the boulder has become many more things to you than it is in itself–you have seen faces & shapes in its surfaces that are not there, & once you are far away from it you will stop giving life to it, & it will be pebbly & still in the distance.

 

Previously: "How Do I Overcome the Intense Insecurity I Feel Around My Best Friend?"

Taisia Kitaiskaia is a poet, writer, and Michener Center for Writers fellow. She's taking questions on behalf of Baba Yaga at AskBabaYaga@gmail.com.



4 Comments / Post A Comment

eizverson22

Sometimes the work would bring me a lot of trouble, but the appropriate psychological adjustment will be much better.

Neve Garrett

I love this. And it makes me think of a favorite passage from Even Cowgirls Get the Blues:

“Perhaps a person gains by accumulating obstacles. The more obstacles set up to prevent happiness from appearing, the greater the shock when it does appear, just as the rebound of a spring will be all the more powerful the greater the pressure that has been exerted to compress it. Care must be taken, however, to select large obstacles, for only those of sufficient scope and scale have the capacity to lift us out of context and force life to appear in an entirely new and unexpected light.

For example, should you litter the floor and tabletops of your room with small objects, they constitute little more than a nuisance, an inconvenient clutter that frustrates you and leaves you irritable; the petty is mean. Cursing, you step around the objects, pick them up, knock them aside.

Should you, on the other hand, encounter in your room a nine thousand pound granite boulder, the surprise it evokes, the extreme steps that must be taken to deal with it, compel you to see with new eyes. Difficulties illuminate existence, but they must be fresh and of high quality.”

ClaudTerneisa

Simple and easy you just have to learn to accept what you have right at this moment and recognize the fact that you could always be learning and progressing as time goes by. - Best Naperville Dentist

jack123654

Nice article you have published
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